Too much Mob Wars and not enough energy

04 June 2008

I have a Facebook and a Myspace page. Lately, I've spent more time on Facebook playing one of their application games. There are way too many. My latest addiction is a fairly new application called Mob Wars.

Mob Wars (MW) is a game where you start off as a street thug and you steal and fight your way to become a powerful mobster. MW has a gray screen with menu items and you select certain items to either buy weapons, buy property, commit crimes (called "jobs") or fight another mob. The results of those actions are shown on screen in written form: so, you kill another mob boss, it reads, "You killed Al Capone!" or if another mobster puts a hit one you: "You died, losing 50 points." You don't see blood, money, or anything. You respond to written messages.

Now here it gets better. It's an interactive game. So, if you decide to fight another mob(boss), it is another person playing the game. I've played with people all over the world. Many mob bosses have formed "syndicates" to protect their members and war against others. I won't reveal the name of the syndicate to which I belong; suffice to say that it is a powerful syndicate. Right now we are warring with another "family" and we interact with one another through our group's discussion board, inbox messages, and sometimes instant messaging. There is trash talking, joking, vendettas...forgive me, I am having fun.

Here in real life though, I've lost my energy. I don't think I'm having a depressive episode, but I'm close enough to it that if I succumb, I might need to increase my meds. I'm worried about paperwork for my foreign student exchange to France in the fall, I need to clean my extremely dirty apartment, I'm short on cash, and I sleep way too much. I live in Decatur, GA and the weather is fine but I spend a lot of my time inside. I don't know, it seems that the only joy I have is MW even though better things are coming along. I just had a birthday and I feel like people didn't care to wish me a happy birthday (even though several did). I'm not dating, I feel unattractive, fresh fruits and vegetables are waaay to expensive and really, I like junk food. I have a strange pain in my ear right now and bugs are biting me; I have thoughts that each bug bite is poison and I'm gradually succumbing to the poison. I've been slacking off at my job- I'm a student assistant who doesn't do much work and can do pretty much whatever I want, so you know it's bad.

Right now I can't sleep, so I'm watching Forever Knight on Netflix Instant Watch. I forgot some of the cheesy effects on this show. I didn't forget that Geraint Wyn Davies was fine as hell, though!

I'm taking a break because there is this really bad episode- I mean, so bad that I started cursing at the screen. I mean, Geraint is awesome and some of his wigs and hairpieces are a hoot, but some of these female characters...ugh.

I have to be at work by 9am this morning. I'm not sleepy and I doubt that I'll get to sleep before 4am. I have to leave my apartment by 8am. I sleep too much and can't sleep when I need to. Or maybe I don't need sleep yet. I signed back on to Facebook to play MW again, but I realized that I was too tired to do that. Hopefully I'll get tired enough to sleep.